Mondays With Tas: Nostalgia

The cycle of abuse in four stanzas, a poem.

two hands gripping the side of a dirt filled hill trying to ascend from its grave.
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As a writer, you must review your work. That is easier said than done when it comes to poetry. Often, poetry is an expression of haunting and sometimes tragic circumstances. Nevertheless, it is worth the effort to see personal growth.

Lustful Burial was written during a toxic relationship. It is describing how abuse impacts the mental health of the victim. When you are stuck with an abuser for long periods of time you don’t just lose your safety, you lose your will to exist.

Abuse tears at you and breaks you. It makes you inferior to the person in control and harms your emotional and physical well-being.

We look back at this poem and although it is sad, we can see how far we have come. Going from being buried to thriving and living life in a safe environment.

Without further ado, here is our 2015 poem…

Lustful Burial

A poetic explanation of the impact of toxic people and the cycle of trauma.

Craving and longing for you.
It is impossible to unbury you from the place.
The place where you lay and fade to oblivion.
I dream of you,
Your face never changes,
You were a mistake, but I long for you once more.

I would follow you to my death.
I would let the dirt fill my lungs.
Dragging me under To the depths of my own hell.
I would die for you!

Dying.
Dying.
Dying.

Gasping for air as the first fill my lungs,
The dirt that you smeared over my skin.
The longing I have for what has been,
Covered in mud and trying to scream;
The lust I felt for you has buried me.

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Tas is an autistic, queer, nonbinary, person of color that a
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Tas (they/them)

Tas (they/them)

We are autistic members of the disability community and hold various mental health diagnoses. We are advocates for social justice, writers and scholars of life.